living budget wise

holy moley it's been a long time since I got on this thing.


I'm blaming it on being a woman.

I enjoy a lot of things and not just enjoy them...but NEED to do them because I HAVE to, otherwise I feel dead inside. Like for instance.

1. socialize. I must be around other people on a daily basis, not including children, namely women
2. enrich my children's minds. I am obsessed with them being exposed to all things such as nature and art. I am fearful they will grow to be dis-functional adults with low I-Q's and then aimlessly live with us till they are 30. 3. be in control, and on top of all things related to my life. This is not only exhausting (and might I add I know I am in denial)...impossible. 4. plan stuff. again, this is related to socializing but I am a leader and like to have a plan of Friday nights, long weekends and vacations 5. tidy the slip covers on my stupid living room couch. I refuse to replace them because I KNOW Sam will ruin a new set, so I keep the sloppy, droopy, atrocious, stupid, stupid things 6. clear the counters of junk. I hate clutter almost as much as I hate when people clip their nails in public 7. write. I need to share it all

These all take a copious amount of time. After being away for a weeks long vacation down south and my requirements to plan, pack and stay on top of it all, I am left with giant blanks in my communications.
I think i am back now.